Tired


I am tired. I am tired of getting up each day. I am tired of getting dressed and going to work. I am tired of working. I am tired of being on. I am tired of interacting with people at work. I am tired of going to meetings. I am tired of answering questions. I am tired of making decisions. I am tired of being a worker. I am tired of being a manager. I am tired.

I am tired. I am tired of therapy. I am tired of homework from therapy. I am tired logging my mood. I am tired of logging my sleep patterns. I am tired of tracking my thoughts. I am tired of thinking. I am tired of making an effort. I am tired of helping myself. I am tired of treatment. I am tired of nightmares and restless sleep. I am tired.

I am tired. I am tired of physical pain. I am tired of seeing doctors. I am tired of physical therapy. I am tired of strengthening exercises. I am tired of exercising, not that I’m doing it much. I am tired of thinking about exercising. I am tired of thinking about my weight gain. I am tired of thinking about how much I’m eating compared to how much I’m not exercising. I am tired.

I am tired. I am tired of being a functional human being. I am tired of the day-to-day effort of living. I am tired of these thoughts. I am tired of the guilt I feel for having these thoughts. I am tired of the pain these thoughts cause. I am tired of the too many thoughts swirling around in my head, making it hurt. I am tired of feeling like a burden. I am tired of holding back the tears. I am tired of crying. I am tired of the heaviness weighing down on my chest. I am tired of feeling emotional all the time. I am tired of feeling indifferent. I am tired of feeling. I am tired.

I am tired in a way that feels like there’s not enough sleep to make the tired go away. I am tired.

One thought on “Tired”

  1. Sounds like you’re tired.

    I’m on disability so I don’t have to work, but it’s not much better.
    Maybe you could get on disability where you live, if that’s something that interests you.

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